Sunday, December 27, 2009

Another venting moment

So about an hour ago i swear everyone was fcking yelling at me that i dont care about the people in this house anymore, or I just dont appreciate what I have. Now usually when im in this kind of situation i just shut up and suck it up, but tonight i just exploded. If your a follower and have read my stuff before you know i complain like a pro, all i do is nag and nag. honestly..lately thats all ive been getting from my mom and my family or ive been doing it back. I just dont give a shit anymore for what happens to three certain people in my family, anyone want to guess who they are?... hey you got that right. I dont give a shit to what happens to my mom or my two younger sisters at this moment, they are out of my mind. Why try to get a parents respect when they dont give it to you, why try to act like a good teacher when your students arent even looking or plan on looking. Why try you know? Im just gonna focus on the people who i know need me and at least give me respect that i have gained or earned.

My grandmas not gettting better everyone. I dont know what to do. I never have and probably never will. When I look at her, my heart breaks to see the person i love more in the world so sick. My grandma has to take her medication every four hours, im not really sure what happens if she misses a time and i dont want to find out. So if you see me in person, i look like shit. Im there everytime my grandma has to take her medicine, im there when she needs me. Im just praying that with me being there its making it easier on her.

Next month my relatives are moving in. There is room in the house for them, and the reason their coming here is to help my grandma. How can I complain about that? But here I am writing. Its hard enough with seven people in the house but now its going to be ten. Oh the joy of having to clean the house more as punishment my mother gives me, Oh the joy of them having to endure more of my moms shit about how much she hates me and her life. Just Oh the joy.

So after my explosion on my family, i grabbed my laptop, cell phone and my wallet and am now sitting under a tree at the park up the street from my house. knowing my family they just think im next door and will be home later on. Dont worry about me I always go home, not because I have no where else to go. I go home to take care of my grandma, I go home so that I can be strong for my grandma, I go home because...well.. home is just home.

Tuesday, December 22, 2009


So many of you may have heard by now that Avatar is an Awesome movie!!! If you've seen it you know what I mean, if you have seen it and don't know what i mean...then there must be something wrong with you. xP. jkjk. I love this movie because it has everything i love with a movie and a book. Action and Romance. If those two things are in a book/movie, then I am instantly hooked for life. The graphics were amazing, all the technology in the movie is something that any person would want. The characters were unforgettable, the colors, the ideas, just everything was unforgettable!! I could rant on an on about how much i love this movie or maybe I already am. but yea go and watch the movie and make sure you bring a was a 2 hour and 40 min movie and I went into the theaters with nothing but T-shirts and Jeans. I love this movie and hopefully you will to =].

Friday, December 4, 2009


I'm so behind on everything and everything. my grades for school are Ok but they could be a lot better if i actually did the classwork and homework. Ive been grounded for a month so I've been going out with my friends, running, talking on the computer like 24/7 and just not staying at home. As of right now I haven't read a book in two weeks I just noticed that and it surprised the shit out of me. lol. I have soo much to be read books everywhere in my room. I have Demon King unread, Covet unread, Deadly little Lies unread, Demons kiss half way through with that and another series that my best friend bought for me since i was sad that I still have not yet read. So this weekend or when the school semester ends I plan to at least read a chapter or entire book.

Friday, November 13, 2009

got $40 gift card for Borders. =]

So for the past three weeks my economics has been working on an urban development project, and this project was stressful and fun at the same time. We had to build our own city, making sure the houses are affordable or at market rate and a whole bunch of other shit. Im just soo glad its over, well anyways at the end of the three weeks we had to present our final plan for our city to a group of proffesionals. It was so scary to share in front of them that one of my group members hands were shaking and he stuttered a lot during his part of the presentation. The day before we presented we spent like 6 hours at my house typing out everything, coloring the pictures, and just practicing what we're going to say. We ordered A LOT of pizza too. xD.

Heres a pic of my group members:
Bryson: the one who freaked during the presentation, Kristene, Jon, Janelle: the one who saved bryson. Christina and then me.

Heres a picture of what we built: my hands are in the picture.So the yellow legos are houses, the green parts are parks, blue are offices, red is business retail stores, and black are parking lots.

Street level view:
So even though our group did OK for presentations we somehow won, against our classmates. Which suprised all of us. The winning team members each got a $20 gift card to borders, and my partner bryson doesnt like to read so he gave me his card for free!! So now i have a $40 gift card to borders!!! I cant wait to go shopping!! Im so behind on my reading

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

right here and right now

right here and right life sucks. I use the term "FML" a lot but this past week has been a real FML kind of moment. I decide to tell my mom about my boyfriend and she completely blows up on me. You think a mother would be happy for their daughter, but she was full on pissed off at me. She even started crying, she thought i was a slut and would get pregnant just from hugging him. My mother thinks I have no self control. no sense of responsibility, and no brain in general. If i had to describe my mom in a few short words or a word it would be asshole. People are telling me that my mom is just looking out for me and wants best for me, but right now i think that's a load of BS. My sisters in the 7Th grade and she told my mom the same exact time as me that she has a bf too, and you know what happened to her? NOTHING! not even a stern warning to watch out for guys cause they can be guys.

My mom still doesn't approve of my friends also, she thinks they are all bad influences on me. She doesn't even know my friends and whenever she says she does i just blow up on her. the only time my mom has met my friends is when she offers to give them a ride home, or she says hi to them. that's it. shes never had a meaningful conversation with my friends and i don't want her too. I know who my friends are, and she will not tell me who i can and cant hang out with. If you've met my friends, they are the best friends a person can ask for. None of us are the same, we are all different but for some reason i think we complete each other =]

My mom isn't the only problem in my life right now. I guess if you know me you would know that my grandma is the most important person to me in my house and she has always been more of a mom to me then my real mother ever has. In the past two months my grandma has been getting worse and worse. I don't know whats going on with her, i know her cancer is gone, but that left a heavy toll on her body. Sometimes i try to avoid her so that i cant remember that at any time she might leave me with a mother who never wanted me in the first place. I think it was two weeks ago, my grandma decided to hire some nurses to help take care of her from time to time. So they thought of everything and anything that we never would have thought of. they were able to get my grandma an oxygen machine, medicine to make the pain easier and just someone to keep her company when most of us aren't home. I love my grandma with all my heart and never want to lose her, but i know i will sooner or later...I'm just praying its later.

I forgot to mention that I'm grounded right now, probably for another month...My mom told me I'm grounded because i don't tell her everything and anything that's going on in my life. that is the most messed up answer Ive heard. So for the next month i basically have no social life whatsoever. No cell phone, no laptop, no going out, and my friends cant come over. On the brighter side my friend is lending me a phone that i can borrow, and i don't have to break up with my bf. Who is a really great guy for waiting this all out with me =]

Sometimes I wonder what my life would be like if i had a different mom. My mom drinks and from time to time she smokes. She expects me to give her respect and trust when she doesn't respect or trust me. I strongly believe that to get respect you must first give respect and earn it to keep it. Same thing goes with trust. My dad taught me that...and i know my mom still hasn't learned that with her time in life. My mom has even blamed me for everything that's happened in her life, she blames me for being born, she blames me for all the stress in her life and she blames me just for being me. After reading that you do have to wonder what my life would be like if i had a different mom.

This whole post is just for me to vent, and right now its helping a lot. Now that i think about what i wrote i sound like a brat, i know there are people out there in world who are either going through the same things as me or have it worse. I know all that from fact, but is it so wrong for me to want to just vent and complain about my life? you tell me.

I do know that life is worth enduring because with all the shit that's happening around you, there are always people who are going to be there for you no matter what you do in life. Some of my family members are always supporting me in what i do, my boyfriend is understanding and listens to everything that i have to say, and i have my friends who are always there for me. So right here and right now, all i have to do is endure life and remember that there are people in my life who trully care for me.

Friday, October 23, 2009

No school Fridays

So today is the first day out of 17 days when all the public schools in hawaii have no school on Friday. As you know we are all living in a time where the economy is falling and doesnt look like its going to rise. Well a lot of the federal and state departments here are trying to budget the money, and to do so they have decided to either cut the hours of the workers, or fire workers. For the schools in Hawaii the teachers have accepted 17 days where they cant work, just to save money. It sucks for the teachers, maybe for the kids who are taking advanced placement classes, and for those who want to go to an out of state college but for me its another where i can have free time to do whatever i want. So on these 17 free days, I am going to sleep, read, go to the beach, go running, hang out with my friends, im going to be doing everything and anything. Well maybe I'll do some homework on one of those days.

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

Books read in september

This is kind of late but Ive been having too much fun since my one week fall break started.=]
So last month I read:

  1. Fade
  2. Leaving Paradise
  3. Darkest Whisper
  4. Two way street
  5. Hush Hush
  6. Catching Fire
  7. Shiver
  8. Blood Promise
  9. Intertiwned
  10. Claymore
  11. Grendel(for school)

I think thats all of it..

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

not learning anything...but having a shit load of fun!!!

English was never my favorite class in the world, and now probably never will be. But i get to talk to a lot of my friends in that class and make jokes behind the teachers back, text other people in other classes or maybe even the person right next to me. =]
So one day my friend made a somewhat poem for me and it made me laugh like crazy, and my teacher gave me the most retarted look(even though her face is already like that....)

Shannon Shannon is a tree
How will you get down to me
Youve been up there since three
Do you not have to pee?

Shannon Shannon please come down
There are weirdos all around
They found something in the ground
Theyd love to show you what they found

Shannon Shannon in a tree
Where in the world may you be
Oh wait now I see
you are in the cemetery!

Shannon Shannon oh my dear
There is something you should hear
Theres a hobo offering you some beer
Just thought Id let you know my dear

Shannon Shannon did you know
That out of your tree down below
Is a present with a bow
What is it I dont know

Shannon Shannon will you please
Open your present just for me
There is a suprise you see
A box and a bottle filled with pee!

Thats her poem!!! =]

Sunday, September 20, 2009

These past two weeks

these past two weeks have been the best two weeks of my life and the most stressful. First it started off witht an Okinawan festival that happens every year.theres always a bunch of food, games, entertainment and its right next to the beach so you always have something to do after. I worked at the dunking booth this year, Ive been in the chair for the past 6 years and it never gets old. But this year was even better, not only did I not get a lot of free food, and a tan, i met this amazingly cute guy. =] hes the same age as me, but goes to a private school =[. but it doesnt matter, i talk to him everyday and its always fun to be around him.

But when something good comes into your life, something bad is always not that far behind, last thursday my grandma fell and broke her leg... it was around 2 in the morning, she wanted to go to the bathroom or something and the next thing i know is that my aunty needs me to get my parents up and to call 911. Believe it or not but that wasnt the first time I had to call 911, I hate calling them, sometimes they make you hold or they say "Ms you need to speak louder or calm down" how do i calm down and im yelling my head off! At the time I didnt know that my grandma broke her leg, i thought she was full on dying... If youve read from my blog before you might know that my grandma has had cancer before and is now in recovery. So if you were me you might have thought that the side affects of kimo therapy have caughten up to my grandma.

I went to the hospital in the ambulance and was awake from 2 am to 9pm, my grandma was in soo much pain when they were bringing her in the hospital i wish i was deaf or just had my earphones with me. Whats even worse is that I skipped on day of school to be in the hospital with my grandma and my teacher didnt excuse my absence and said "you should have came to school" I was about to kick his ass, i didnt care if i got suspended or expelled you should never tell anyone that!! My grandma stayed in the hospital for about 4 days and is now at home with me and the rest of my family.

Im happy and exhausted for what has happened in the past two weeks, and if your reading this then it might not have made any sense. =] im just reviewing about what happened and its making me remember that there is always good and bad things in life

Thursday, September 3, 2009

What I read in August

I am now nine months in the 100+ book contest and I'm not sure what my book count is anymore... I'll go and check later on. So this month in August I read:

  1. Fire
  2. Fade
  3. Rave
  4. Shiver
  5. Two way street
  6. Blue Kiss
  7. Blood Promise
  8. Intertwine
  9. Blue Moon
  10. Dark Warrior Unleashed
  11. Dark Warrior Unbroken
  12. Chronicles of Vladimir Tod: Tenth grade slays

I think that's all the books I've read... August was a good month to read, especially since school started again

Sunday, August 30, 2009



Locke Vinetti is a high school junior, disenchanted and more than a little hostile. In fact for years hes had a lousy social life because of a problem he has with his anger-a force he calls "the venom". Ever since he was eight years old and a bit off a piece of classmates nose, hes been something of a loner. But all that is about to change when he foes out with his one friend, Randall, to meet some of his crew hanging out at Riverside Park. Because in addition to meeting his kindred spirit Casey- who has his own problems with his own kind of venom(or as Casey calls it the "black") Locke meets a spiket blue fairy haircut goth girl of his dreams(Renee) And if their relationship is going to work, he knows he has to rid himself od the venom once and for all. Not only does this book tell a story of whats happening around locke it also tells a story for what goes through his dreams and how he tries to deal with the venom.

My thoughts:
Venomous by Christopher Krovatin had already drawn me in with the book cover picture, everything about this book just stuck out to me, the title of the book, the pics in the book and the summary is like nothing Ive ever read before. Venomous is an amazing book because it shows all the emotions and how hard Locke is trying to fight those emotions. He knows that the venom has caused him and the peoplpe he loves so much problems, that he tries everything to overcome it. Krovatin was able to make such strong connections so that the reader can understand what Locke has to go through, I just love it.

What I love even more is that there's a romance going on through out the book, and like every book the girl is able to help the guy overcome all of his issues. But with Venmous that only worked out for so long and Locke has to find away to fix the course of action that he has take.

Venmous is a book that every teen would have an easy time relating to with having trouble controlling your anger, having a hard time making new friends, expressing your feelings to someone that you shouldnt love or just the life that Locke has. This book is an amazing book with everything that a teen(mostly me) could want in a book.
If you havent read this book... what are you waiting for!! go out and buy the book, steal it from a friend or go to a public library just go and read this book!

Favorite Quote:
"I was a fallen Guardian Angel, the Gargoyle upon the church of sin and despair, a cathode ray of desolation" -Locke

Thursday, August 27, 2009

Twenty of my favorite YA couples

So I noticed how big my bookshelf was getting this morning when i was rushing to get ready for school and I wondered to myself who are my favorite YA couples. You wouldn't believe how productive I was at school... I read Blood Promise and thought of ideas for this list. In no particular order these are my Favorite YA couples.

  1. Katsa and Po (Graceling)
  2. Fire and Brigan (Fire)
  3. Rose and Dimitri (Vampire Academy series)
  4. Christian and Lissa (Vampire Academy series)
  5. Edie and Dylan (Diary of a Crush series)
  6. Aden and Victoria (Intertwine)
  7. Mary Ann and Riley (Intertwine)
  8. Sara and Toby (When it Happens)
  9. Marissa and Nash (Waiting on you)
  10. Locke and Renee (Venomous)
  11. Clary and Jace (Mortal Instruments series)
  12. Janie and Cabel (Wake and Fade)
  13. Sam and Grace (Shiver)
  14. Morning and Portia (Suck it up)
  15. Brittany and Alex (Perfect Chemistry)
  16. Sophie and Robin (What my mother doesn't know)
  17. Maddy and Chris (Gamer Girl)
  18. Jason and Kyle (Rainbow boys)
  19. Audrey and James (Audrey, Wait!)
  20. Vlad and Meredith (Chronicles of Vladimir Tod)

I think some of the couples I chose aren't that well known but I love em. =]


I am so happy right now!!! I got to leave school at 12 cause I don't have a 6th period!! Anyways besides having to take a quiz first thing in the morning I was able to get the new Skillet CD!! I love all of their songs because they annoy the shit out of my mom(don't ask why) and the lyrics are just amazing!

here's the lyrics for Awake and Alive:
I'm at war with the world and they
Try to pull me into the dark
I struggle to find my faith
As I'm slippin' from your arms

Its getting harder to stay awake
And my strength is fading fast
You breathe into me at last


I'm awake and I'm alive
Now i know what I believe inside
Now its my time
I'd do what i want cause this is my life
her, right now

I'll stand my ground and never back down
I know what I believe inside
I'm awake and I'm alive

I'm at war with the world cause I
ain't never gonna sell my soul
Ive already made up my mind
No matter what I cant be bought or sold

When my faith is getting weak
And i feel like giving in
You breathe into me again

Waking up waking up

In the dark
I can feel you in my sleep
In your arms I feel you breathe into me
Forever hold this heart that I will give to you
Forever I will live for you

For my favorite song: The last night

You come to me with scars on your wrist
You tell me this will be the last night feeling like this
I just came to say goodbye
I dint want you to see me cry, I'm fine
But I know its a lie


This is the last night you'll spend alone
Look me in the eyes so I know you know
I'm ever where you want me to be
The last night you'll spend alone,
I'll wrap you in the arms and I wont let go,
I'm everything you need me to be

Your parents say everything is your fault
But they don't know you like i know you they dont know you at all
I'm so sick of when they say
Its just a phase you'll be OK your fine
But i know its a lie
the last night away from me

The night is so long when every things wrong
If you give me your hand i will help you hold on


I wont let you say goodbye
I'll be the reason why
The last night
Away from me

If you want to listen to these songs just go to YouTube for the last night here's the link
for Awake and Alive here's the link
Hope you like skillet, if not...well you just weird

Sunday, August 23, 2009

I got an award!!!

I got my second award! its called the Zombie Chicken Award, I got the award from Jessica at Heres the description for this award:

The blogger who revieves this awatd belives in the Tao of the zombie chicken-excellence, grace and persistence in all situations, even in the midst of a zombie apocalypse. These amazing bloggers regularly produces content so remarkable that their readers would brave a raving pack of zombie chickens just to be able to read their inspiring words. As a recipient of this renowned award, you now have the task of passing it on to at least 5 other worthy bloggers. Do not rist the wrath of the zombie chickens by choosing unwisely or not choosing at all!
So the five people that I pick are:

I forgot to post about the other award i got which is really bad because i got it in July... =]

the award is from Meggin and the award is called "lets be friends"

Monday, August 17, 2009

Another kick ass contest

Can you believe all the amazing contests that are going on now? There are a crazy amount on Hopes bookshelf,
Princess bookie
and there's ANOTHER one at Bloody Bookaholic!!

I have the worst luck out of all my friends...I have seen things that NO ONE should ever see and somehow I'm always in the wrong place and the wrong time...there was this one time that i went running after dinner and a random dog started chasing me and believe me its true cause i almost died from running so fast. Anyways you should go out and check out the blogs and pray like me that you win an amazing book!!! good luck to everyone!!

Thursday, August 13, 2009

A kick ass contest

If you want an awesome chance to win like 15 amazing books go to this site!!!

The winner will get all these books

  1. Hush Hush by Becca Fitzpatrick
  2. Along for the Ride by Sara Dessen
  3. Kiss of Life by Daniel Waters
  4. Shiver by Magie Stiefvater
  5. Troy High by Shana Norris
  6. Love you Hate you miss you by Elizabeth Scott
  7. Lovestruck Summer by Melissa Walker
  8. Death by Series by Linda Gerber(3 books)
  9. $5 gift card to walmart
  10. 3 Sara Dessen books(Just listen, This Lullaby and Someone Like you)
  11. Suite Scarlett by Maureen Johnson
  12. Fire by Kristin Cashore
  13. extra amazon cards
  14. and a book of your choice that is under $15

When I first saw this blog i swear I was in shock or something, so if your smart go and enter too

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

Im really not going to learn anything in english

Freshman year and sophomore year I had an awesome english teacher, but as soon as Junior year came it all went down hill. I had this short teacher name Mrs. Uecke which is pronounced as IKI, im not kidding about that. In her class all we did was read short stories, get tested on the story and then do the same thing over and over again. It was so fricken boring that i slept most of the time and still got an A or B in that class(matters on how willing i was to actually do her work). Now its my SENIOR year and I was so happy that I have a new english teacher but it turns out that shes like a million times worse!!! This new teacher Ms. Tomita is crazy as all crazy teachers come. On the first day of school she somehow came late to my period 5 english class, and it took us like 20 minutes just to take attendance just because she kept on talking about herself after every other name. Yesterday was the most hilarious day of all, for some reason when we were taking about the book Beowulf she asked about Harry Potter and how to say Voldemort... It took me and my friends like 6 tries before she could actually say the name correctly and when my friend Micheal wakes up and listens to the conversation Ms Tomita asks what Harry Potter is about and Micheal says its about a whole bunch of black guys who are trying to be friends with each other. I swear to god that she believed him with all her heart, and she couldnt tell that micheal was being sarcastic. My friend Mei Qi sat in our class this one time, she has english at the community college but she didnt want to leave yet cause it was raining so she hung out in my class. Mei Qi came to my class maybe on the 6th day of school and my teacher didnt realize that Mei Qi hasnt been in our class until that day.
Ms Tomita is a cool teacher and all but man she is so stupid sometimes and its driving me crazy!!! I thought I was going to actually learn something this year but for what Ive seen so far Im not going to learn anything at all...

Hope everyone else gets lucky and has a teacher who will teach them something...useful

Sunday, August 9, 2009


Fire is a prequal to Graceling and takes place thirty years before Katsa and Po's story. It is also set in an entirely different land a certain character from Graceling makes an appearnence in Fire, other than that one character the story is differnet from Katsa and Po's. Fire is a monster, a human monster and the last of her kind. In her homeland the Dells there are monsters ranging from mosquitos to raptors and they all have one thing in common, there incomperable beauty that every man and women has a desire for. Buts that not all every monster in the Dells has some capability to control the minds of those around them, and there are those in the Dells who have built a strong mind to avoid being taken over. With the ability to control those around her and her beauty she inspires fear, hatred and longing. Fire is the one thing that everyone longs for in the Dells, Fires father was the old kings most trusted advisor, the man who lead to his death and the man responsible to the current state of the land. With her amazing gift she is saught after by the King of the Dells to help stop an oncoming war.

My opinion:
I absolutely love Graceling and knew that Fire would be just as great, but man was I wrong this book was ten times better than what I expected. I would just read the book every opportunity I had to read this book, and school started the same week I got this book so most of my teachers think that I dont pay attention in class....which is not a good thing, everytime i actually try to pay attention my teacher gives me the stink eye. But its not my fault I just wanted to read about Fire, Brigan and Archer, and the list goes on. The characters were amazing and the way Kristin Cashore writes just engulfs you with how amazingly beautiful their world is and how complex everything is. Fire was yet another kick ass girl who was able to evolve into something more than she ever thought she might be, Fire was able to grow out of the cruel shadow that her father had created and become a hero in the Dells. Fire was an amzing book and character, the romance in the book is breath taking, the action leaves you guessing and the mystery is something that cannot be missed. Kristin Cashore has written yet another amzing book but in my eyes and mind Graceling will always have a bigger part of my heart.

Thursday, August 6, 2009


Gracling by Kristin Cashore was fricking Amazing!!!

In a world where people are born with an extreme skill called a Grace are feared and exploited, Katsa carries the burden of a skill that even she despises: the Grace of killing. She lives under the command of her Uncle Randa, King of the Middlums, and is expected to execute his dirty work, punishing and torturing anyone who displeases him.
When she firsts meets Prince Po, who is graced with combat skills, Katsa has no hint of how her life is about to change.
She never expects to become prince Po's friend.
She never expects to learn a new truth about her own Grace or about a terrible secret that lies hidden far away... a secret that could destroy all seven kingdoms with words alone.

What I thought:
You have no idea how much I love this book, there was everything that a person could ask for! Death defying adventure, an amazing romance, a mesmerizing world like nothing else youve ever heard, and characters that no one can ever forgot all rolled together in one amazing kiss ass book!! Graceling is the first book written by Kristin Cashore and it is absolutely extraordinary, she has been able to write a novel that shows how determined a person can be to prove themselves to the world. Katsa has never really known her place but over time she was able to find a place where she exactly belongs and she has discovered what she truly can be. I absolutely love Katsa and Po their relationship throughout the book was something that I could just scream for joy, both of them are the strongest most determined characters and make the power couple of all the books I've ever read. Move over Edward and Bella cause here comes Katsa and Po, those two can kick anyones butts no questions asked!
Kristin Cashore was able to treat readers with a compelling story that will suck you in from the very first paragraph and leaves you wanting more and more. Cashore was able to make incredible believable characters with depth that can relate to the older generations and younger generations.
If you have yet to read this book then I suggest that you go out and buy this book NOW! The next book comes out in October, its called Fire and its a prequal to Graceling.

Favorite Quote:
"I will not go," Katsa said,"for a long time. I'll not go until you want me to; or until youre ready to go yourself"

Monday, August 3, 2009

First day of school

You know what sucks?...having to go to your first day of school early. I start school at 7:30 but today I went to School at like 7 am trying to move my classes around so that I dont have a free period, my counselor doesnt come until like 725 when A LOT of us start at 7:30 so we all sign up to make an appointment, Im third on the stupid list and I dont even get called in at all. I have to wait in line for like 20 minutes only for him to have to tell me that I cant move any of my classes around because its my english class. So with the gap my schedule would have been:

  1. Math
  2. Entrepreneurship
  3. Economics
  4. Japanese 4
  6. English

If I was able to move my english up it would have:

  1. Math
  2. Entrepreneurship
  3. Economics
  4. Japanese 4
  5. English

I would have been able to leave school at like ONE o clock everyday or earlier on some days!!! Im stuck in school until like 2 now.

I am so pissed off right now, because of all the cut backs in our school there are a lot less teachers are more students then ever before in each class. Last year in my english there was like 18 of us and this year theres 32.

Senior year is suppose to be the best year, but all I have so far is crowded as hell classes, a gap in my schedule, no car to bring to school and a teacher who wont stop talking about herself. So i am hoping that things get better soon...

Saturday, August 1, 2009

Stealing Heaven

Stealin Heaven by Elizabeth Scott was amazing, I think this is the third book that Ive read from her and all of them are amazing!!

Danielle and her mom are proffesional thieves, and its the only life that she has ever known. When her mom decides that they should go to a place actually called Heaven, she figures it gonne be the same as all of the other places. Do the research, steal whatever they need and leave town.
But as soon as she reaches the small town, everything is different, she meets Gregwho has a troubled past and is a genuine cop, Danielle knows she shouldnt get to attached to him but its just so hard. Then theres Allison who may turn out to be her first real friend.
As things go horribly wrong she must chose the life shes always wanted or the life that shes known her entire life

My opinion:
This book was easy to relate to in so many ways, Danielle just wants more with her life, but there is always something in her way...her heart. Shes been raised since she was young to steal things, all she wants is to have a place she can call home.But her mom doesnt want that, and Danielle loves her mom and doesnt want to leave her or dissapoint her. Stealing Heaven was amazing on so many levels, it was easy to read in one sitting, and just the way Elizabeth Scott writes it keeps you wanting more and guessing what might happen next.

Favorite Quote:
"My mother taught me to believe in Silver, to believe in things, but I think its more important to believe in me"

Books read in July

I cant believe July is over!! I start school in like two days and am going to be a Senior!!! This month I read a lot of books and some of the endings for some of the books, and I will be so pissed off if it doesnt get any better in the next book. So this month I read:

  1. Bloodfever
  2. Darkfever
  3. Faefecer(ending annoyed the crap out of me)
  4. Pleasure Unbound
  5. Desire Unchained
  6. Passion Unleashed
  7. The Hunger Games
  8. Blue moon (dissapointed me...)
  9. The Chronicles of Vladimir Tod: Eighth Grade Bites
  10. The Chronicles of Vladimir Tod: Ninth Grade Slays
  11. Stealing Heaven

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

Sometimes I wish...

I love my family to death even though my mother can drive me crazy, my sisters are annoying, my cousin doesnt lock the door when hes "busy". I love my family to death, but as soon as death may be coming closer to our front door I just want to get away from them. Sometimes I wish my family wouldnt tell me everything thats going on, they always tell me the good the bad and the really ugly. Why cant my entire family be like my mom where she keeps me out of the loop and not in the loop, why cant i handle being around someone who is sick and be happy with the time i have with them now and not be sad of what i might lose. I love the fact that my family knows that i would just sit and listen to what everyone is talking about and can remember most of what they say, I love the fact that to every party I would go to I would meet someone new. Sometimes I wish that I didnt care so much about my family, if i didnt I wouldnt return home to make dinner, or watch my sisters or to even keep my grandma company.

The thing that I wish for everyday is that cancer didnt have to intertwine with my grandmas life. I dont want to be mean or selfish but i wish it had happened to someone else instead of my grandma. The grandma who taught me how to write my S in the right direction, the grandma who taught me how to cook, the grandma who would let me lye down on her stomach until i was asleep. Maybe this is someone elses wish coming true, that cancer didnt come into their families lives and instead came into mine.

I just realized that blogging helps me vent if i dont want to talk to someone directly, though sometimes i wish that I could just tell what I feel to my grandma or to my friends, but I have to wonder what their reactions might be... My friends are great to hang out with, but the friends that i feel would listen to and really listen is someone i dont want to bother. My grandma has a lot on her plate, shes gone through cancer 4 times... I dont know how she does it but man its crazy. Today was probably the worst day, I didnt want to stay home so I went to the mall with friends..and i find out that my grandma was making funeral arrangements for her and my grandpa... Im not ready for her to die, I cant lose her, I know that everyone goes once its their time or when fate is cruel... nothing really bad has ever happened to me before and if i lose her i dont know what will happen to my family or mostly what might happen with me...

So i guess what im thinking most in my head right now is to be carefully what you wish for. I hate that saying because its becoming apart of my life everyday. If you wish for something bad not to happen to you it might happen to someone else... I would never wish for anyone to go through what im going through, and hopefully no one has to. Im gonna stop rambling and just say again be careful what you wish for and that this blog sounds totally emo... XD

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Im going through my Comp...

I need to delete some things from my computer since i plan to restart it soon to try and fix the stupid thing, and i found a lot of stupid pictures and videos that ive taken of my friends, dont think ive found one of me yet though. =]. There are random videos and pictures i just thought i would love to show.

This is a video of what we did, on a sunday i think and my friend sara is recording the video, me on the ground and my friend Mei Qi(if you cant say it, its may key basically). We're all cardboard slidding and having a stupid time. My other friend sara lin was suppose to come but she woke up at 4 pm when we left like at 12...she was reading manga till like 3 am i think it was. But we forgave her. =]

My friend sleeping in class, she is going to kill me when she sees this post. =]. I always tell her to stay awake in class!!!

This is my friend sara, shes the weirdo in our little family at skool, and she can always make us laugh no matter what she does!! We were are mei qis sushi place and believe it or not this isnt her first time doing this!

Believe it or not, all of these crazy things happened during skool, and not a lot has happened over the summer... So im hoping that as soon as skool starts everything becomes crazy again. Since most of us have 5 or less classes its going to be a hell of a lot of fun!!!

Friday, July 24, 2009

The Demonica Series

I got the demonica series maybe Sunday or Monday and as soon as I finished I instantly loved the entire series!!! Ive read a lot of paranormal romance books in both YA and adult books, and this series is now in the top three for all of the series that I've read! I am completely in love with paranormal romance books now and forever. The Demonica series by Larissa Ione is about three Seminus brothers who have different mothers and the same father, each seminus demon is able to receive some of the gifts that there mother have. Eidolon Seminus demon and Judicial demon, who once served as a protector of peace, but now a doctor and in charge of a hospital. Shade a Seminus with Umber blood who is a paramedic at the hospital with Eidolon. Last but not least Wraith who is a Seminus demon with vampire blood running through his veins, who is the most dangerous and bad ass out of all his brothers. What I found funny was that the hospital name was Underground General Hospital UGH for short. :D Each brother has a special task at the UGH, but as soon as their 100th year arrives that can all change

The first book is called Pleasure Unbound, it was an epic story between Eidolon and Tayla. Tayla was raised to believe that demons should all die, the Aegis is the organization that has raised Tayla to fight and kill the demons taht trouble the earth, but as soon as she meets Eidolon that all starts to change, she is shown that all demons are not born evil and that some are good. Eidolon is torn between on weither or not he should fall for Tayla or kill her before she can kill anyone else of his kind.

Favorite Quote: "The demon is a prince of the air and can transform himself into several shapes, delude our senses for a time; but his power is determined, he may terrify us but not hurt."

The second book is called Desire Unchained, this book is for Shade and Runa. Runa is or was a human who did not want to fall in love with Shade, but still like all other women she couldnt resist him. Shade has fallen for Runa and had wanted to end things quick but for his sake he had to push her away, to keep the love curse at bay all he has to do is not fall in love with anyone...ever. But as soon as Shade and Runa try to get over each other their destinies are thrown together and they are forced to remember what feelings they were trying to hard to forget. To save themselves they have to work together and fight an evil that they had believed to be dead.
Favorite Quote: "When walking through the 'valley of shallows'
remember, a shadow is cast by a light."

The third book in her series is called Passion Unleashed and I loved this one out of the three books that are out right now(theres another book coming out this year, dont remember when though.) This story was for Wraith and Serena. Wraith is so kick ass to me, hes just one of those guys that you want to help when you know he doesnt want it. Anyways Wraith is a Seminus demon with a death wish that seems to never go away, when an old enemy poisons him with out an antidote he has to find Serena. Serena Kelley is a keeper of a powerful charm that grants her health, a cloak against demons and immortality. To save his he has to take that charm away from Serena but during that process he falls for her..Hard. To save his own lide he must take the life of his lover to save his own.
I love her entire series and cant wait for the next book, if your under 16 i dont think you should read this book, there are some swearing and s** scenes, but if your older than 16 I suggest that you go and read this book especially if you love paranormal romance books.

Wednesday, July 22, 2009


I expected a lot of things out of this movie, but man i did not want to see most of the things from this movie. I thought some parts were hilarious but once the movie is done and ur thinking about it, its just disgusting. I was able to make so much jokes out of this movie but i would NOT want to go and watch this movie again. If you do want to go and watch this movie i suggest that u dont drink anything when its going on cause my friend almost spit out her drink, dont bring anyone under 17 like seriously they will be scarred for life and dont watch it with the opposite sex cause there are some scenes when it can get really awkward.

Sunday, July 5, 2009

Books read in June

This is kind of late but these are the books that I read in June, besides school ending and going to the mall and beach with my friends its getting kind of boring here in Hawaii. So I was able to read more books than last month at least

  1. Wake
  2. Mai-Hime
  3. The Gob Box
  4. Rick and Bobo
  5. Reincarnation
  6. Strange Angels
  7. Yume De Aetera
  8. Midnight Secretary
  9. My sisters Keeper
  10. Inner Light: The dragon Within

Friday, June 26, 2009

Transformers 2

Yesterday I went to go and watch a movie with my dad and sister megan, the movie that we all wanted to go and see was Transformers 2 and WE all LOVED the movie. It was a lot better than the frist one, there was a lot more action, better use of special effects and there was a lot of funny moments. I am telling you right now that if you havent seen this movie yet GO OUT AND SEE IT!!!!

Favorite Quote:
Frat Guy: Im gonna shove my shoe up your ass
Sam: what size is your shoe
Not sure if thats the exact wording but its close enough

Friday, June 19, 2009

Rick and Bobo

I was so lucky to have an opportunity to review a book by the Ventrillo Brothers, there first book is called Rick and Bobo and I loved it.
Ray aka Bobo the happy go loving fun loving brother who is complete polar opposite of his hot tempered but brilliant brother Richard. When Ray creates a "Whiz-ard" he becomes a millionaire, he shares his earnings with Richard and do things that they have never thought of before. But sooner or later Richard and Ray get bored and decide to make one of Ray's fantasies come true. Ray wants to become superhero, using Richards brilliant mind and the supplies from the Vanir coorporation they were able to make that fantasy some true. But they both soon realize that every superhero comes with a supervillian.

I loved this book, Batman, Superman and Spiderman are nothing compared to Richard and Ray, their bond is strong and its just realistic and funny as hell. There were parts in this book that made me crack up out of nowherem fast paced and has action on every page. Rick and Bobo was realistic because it had explained in depth as to how their super powers came to be, not like other books where a spider bites them or they fall into a vat of toxic waste, in this book it was all pure science. For me this book used all the combacks that I would have used if someone was to tease me, and the events that had occured that made me crack up were random and nothing that i have never thought of before.

Favorite Quote:
"Evil begets good and good begets evil"

Im suprised

Yesterday I went driving and I couldn't decide on where to go, and out of nowhere my sister asks me if I can drive her to Barnes and Nobles, then my other sister says she wasn't to go too. My sisters never read and this was a total surprise for me. I'm the sister who's know to read a lot, and my younger sisters are known to be the kids who watch TV and play on the computer all day. So when we get to Barnes and Nobles I figure my sisters would buy a picture book or some kind of magazine... My youngest sister Kalen buys a manga, and my other sister Megan buys the lightning thief book, I would understand if they would want to buy a book for school, but in Hawaii everyone is on summer vacation already. Kalen would always tell me that I should stop reading so much manga and read something else and yesterday she buys a manga. Megan tells me to watch more TV and all of a sudden shes buying a book. I am completely surprised and happy that my sisters are finally reading and not watching so much TV. This goes to show that people can surprise you no matter how long you've known them.

Saturday, June 13, 2009


Anyone read Mangas? I love to read them, my friend in elementary got me into them and havent stopped reading them since. My dad would buy me most of the mangas that I read and I love him for it, and being my mother she completly disagrees with my decision. Theres a store in Hawaii called Colector Maniacs, they have a whole bunch of Japanese products that are always on sale! The manga books in the store are always 25% off, and they always get the books earlier than Barnes and Nobles or Borders, and I am so happy that its just 5 bus stops away. There are a lot of sites that let you read manga for free, my favorite site is Check it out there are mangas with many topics such as vampires, action, romance, korean manga and so much more.

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Winter Queen By Aubrie Dionne

We all have our reasons for who we are and what we do in our lives, in the past the Winter Queen had been a princess of a powerful family with all the riches in the world. Everything in her world had changes when she fell in love with a commoner, who help her heart. But all good things come to an end, her love then broker her heart into pieces with a great betrayl, which would never be healed. Now the princess is controlling the cold winds that come across the land and those who are in her way geel the wrath of the heart that was once whole, but now broken. To heal the coldest, most fragile heart in life all it takes is the kindnest in a person's heart.

Winter Queen by Aubrie Dionne reminds the reader that everyone has an appearance that we don't want to show others. We choose to show a side that everyone hates so that we won't let them get close to our hearts, to never feel the pain of loss again. Wintere Queen also reminds the reader that we have to take a risk in life, every person is not the same, and that one person can heal our hearts and make something better for our lives. This short story is amazing and will help a person realize that with a big risk comes a great pleasure. Winter Queen was well written and leaves the reader wanting more.

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

Grounded on the second day of summer vacation

This is the worst way to start summer vacation IM GROUNDED, me and my mom never get a long(if youve read my older posts you would know) My parents contradict each other everytime, and usually ask my dad what time im suppose to come home from hanging out with my friends. He says whenever if i dont have to make dinner on that day. But with my mom its the complete opposite, she tells me to come home around 11. Yesterday I hung out with my friends all day, we went everywhere. My dad knows who im hanging out with and he says i can come home anytime, this time my cousins was with me. My mom never agrees with him on that... I dont do drugs, i never ditch class so im always wondering why doesnt she trust me like my dad. Did you know my mom thinks im a lesbian? Shes crazy!!! shes seen my boyfriend, and didnt even like him. Anyways since i have no curfew i came home around 3 am, and guess who was waiting...the lady who gave birth to me. She was so pissed off, but i didnt really care, i have learned not to care and my friends know i get grounded a lot. This is sad, me becoming grounded so much that my friends ask me everytime if im grounded. So i think im grounded for a week but my dad usually talks my mom out of it, so you never might see me at the beach tomorrow.

Hope no one else gets grounded like me, and if youre still in school...have fun and get good grades
if your on summer vacation and not me!!!

Monday, June 1, 2009

Books read in May

So this month wasnt so bad as to the past months, and as of today I have one more week of school. I start school at 830 and end like at 140!!! The only downside is that I need to raise my grades and I only have a week to do it.

In May I read:

  1. Lover Avenged
  2. Winter Queen
  3. Dragons Fire
  4. The Duende and the Muse
  5. Web of Deceit
  6. Waiting for you
  7. Ashes of Midnight

Cant wait til summer!!!!

Sunday, May 31, 2009

Author Interview with Tony Peters

So I am an active member on and have meet a lot of people who love to read books and those who would love to give advice on what book they should read next. Last week an Author named Tony Peters asked me to help advertise his book Kids on a case. To get the preview of his book go to

Tell us about yourself.

I guess I can start at the begining. I was born in Chilliwak, British Columbia, Canada, and I was raised in Swift Current Saskatchewan. I have my youth care worker certificate, and my general Biblical Studies certificate. I love working with kids, so haven writen a young reader book kind of suits me as it gives me a chance to interact with kids. I have been happily married for two years as of May 12(I know I am only 21 but I am proud to be happily married to my high school sweetheart.) I love reading, and have been reading novels since as far back as I can remember, being a published writer is a dream come true and I hope to make a full time career out of it.
When did u start writing?
I think I started writing when I was eight or nine, I am not sure which. When I leanred how to write stories I was hooked, I couldnt stop writing. Looking back they seem really lame, almost funny, but hey we all have to start somewhere right? I started taking writing as a serious career when I took Creative Writing in high school, and I havent stopped pushing onward since.
Who would you consider your writing mentor?

My favorite author was definitley Louis L'Amour. His westerns helped give me the desire to read more, to engrose myself of moments of the past. His work gave the ambition to stive to improve my writing, even now I am still learning how to write, and I hope that I never feel I have learned everything there is to know about this amazing craft.
What inspired you to write Kids on a Case?
my inspiration...good question, I guess that I remembered reading a lot of a mystery books growing up that dealt with really childish mysteries and I always wanted to find a mystery writer who wrote more adult situation mysteries for kids. When I couldnt find any(with the exception of the Hardy boys series) I decided to create one myself, and so began the creation of characters, setting, and plot(all before I thought of writing as a career choice.) The characters in my book come from a combination of my school friends. None of the characters are created from one person. They are all little pieces of peoples characters.
Why did you choose kidnapping as a topic for Kids on a Case?
I figured that kidnapping was a good adult topic that wouldnt cross lines with gruesomeness. Also ever mystery writer does a murder, to write another one would be over-killing an already over killed topic. Dont get me wrong, i love a good murder mystery, its just overdone is all. A kidnapping would also allow the group more leverage to find their own clues. In a murder the police would guard the crime scene too heavily.
What other books are you currently working on?
I am currently in the process of editing a sequal, called Kids on a case: Hunting Black Dragon(that is the planned title, but it could change.) It will be longer, and the language difficulty steps up just a little. I think that it is better written than the last one, and it doesnt include the annoying repeat page(yes i too find that annoying, and if I could go back I would find a way to avoid it.) This one involves more danger and intrigue.

What are some of your favorite? (author, food, color, books etc..)
Favorite author... growing up it was the two afore mentioned authors, but now I would have to say J.R.R. Tolkien and C.S. Lewis, which is kind of funny because they used to be friends. They use imagery so well and are very creative. I respect them greatly.
Favorite food would have to be Lasagna and Ceasar salad.
Favorite color is green
Favorite care is the Viper or maybe even the Porsche Carrera G.T.

Friday, May 29, 2009

Summer in one week!!!

School ends in one week, and all I have to do is take final exams for all of my classes, do three more projects, do all my drivers ed work and find a way to have fun/survive the next week. After School is finally over I plan on having my first author interview, reviews on Waiting for you, When it happens, and Perfect Chemistry. I cant wait for this summer I hopefully will do all that i plan to do, go to the beach and to survive the heat thats coming.

Wednesday, May 13, 2009


So on there was a member in the same group as me who was asking for reviewers to help with her website, I replied and said yes. So she would send me short stories I read them and post them. After June 7th when school and drivers ed is FINALLY over expect more reviews from me that are not just short stories.

Sunday, May 3, 2009

Books read in April

So this month wasnt so bad, I've been reading a lot more, but now that the AP exams start next week and that finals are at the end of the month I dont think I'm going to be able to read as much books as I want to. On April 28th the barnes and nobles near my house gets Lover Avenged by JR Ward and I LOVE her books so for this month my goal was to reread the whole series before I read her new book...I was able to read the series and read other books. So this month was a good month for reading books. Heres the list of what I read for this month and am closer to my goal for reading 100+ books...

  1. Raven
  2. City of Glass
  3. Kissing Annabel
  4. Dark Lover
  5. Lover Eternal
  6. Lover Awakened
  7. Lover Revealed
  8. Lover Unbound
  9. Lover Enshrined

In total for this year so far Ive read 33 books and I would love to read 100 or more, Just 67 more books to read. Anyone have any suggestions on what to read?

Friday, April 3, 2009

why you started reading

My friends usually ask me why I like reading so much, they think its boring and that they would rather watch the movie. I usally tell them its because "I dont get along with my mom at all and that she always grounds me when I dont do what she tells me to do and when Im grounded I have nothing better to do" Usually I just would have read a manga(Japanese comic book in case you dont know), but she would start taking those away too. My friend understood my first reason why I read so much, but he wanted another one so I told him what my math teacher told me "maybe you dont read is because you havent found a book that turns you on yet"(I know that sounds weird but yea...) his face turned red after that and i couldnt stop laughing, I even had to tell him that my math teacher said that quote not me. To tell the truth me and my mom usually got along before I started going to high school, I dont know if it was me who changed or it was her(i think its her cause she drinks and smokes way to much). So before high school I never really liked reading, until I had to do 5 book reports in one quarter so I went to barnes and nobles and saw a book by Lara Adrian. The book was called Kiss of Crimson and I finished the book in one day and the rest of her series in the next week. For me I have a lot of reasons for why I started to read, what are some of yours?

this day was the best

So someone in my family is having a party, and my mom tells me to make a cake and that she'll pay me to make it. She buys everything that i need for the cake and out of the supplies I have, she has this weird shaped container. The container was in a weird shape and I ask her about it but she says its suppose to be like that and I have to put the cake better in... and guess what it looked like....
it looked like a penis!!!
I was laughing me ass of when I saw the thing, I had to ask her where she got the container...she says she got it from the sex store. Can you picture your own mother in a sex store!? cause I sure as hell cant. After I finish making the cake apparently she wants frosting for the penis looking cake too... I could not stop laughing so she has to finish making it... Now it looks like a cake that just came! I dont have the picture with the frosting but I have the picture before the frosting. This day was hilarious!!!

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

Books read for March

I had a two week vacation in March and yet I still didnt read more than 10 boos, usually every month I read around 11 but lately I barely read 5. I blame my AP US history class we get way to much work(winter and spring break homework) and I dont get the spare time to read... So this month I read:

1. Crank
2. Suzuka(manga)
3. Parallel(manga)
4. In Your Room
5. Cracked up to be
6. The Wave(for school)
7. Stargazer

Not a lot, but whatever books I read were Amazing!!! Especially Cracked up to be! Im doing the 100+ book challenge and do you think reading an entire series of a manga counts? If not I only read 5 books this month...

Friday, March 20, 2009

4 More Days

A lot of things are coming out and I cant wait for them all!
My birthday is on the 24th and City of Glass by Cassandra Clare is coming out on that day AND Stargazer by Claudia Gray! Then next month Fragile Eternity by Melissa Marr comes out on April 21st!
I cant wait to read all the books I can get my hands on!!

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

Do you read when your sad?

I use books to get away from all the things that usually happen with my family...In my family I carry most of the responsibilities besides making money to support everyone. I make dinner maybe 5 times a week and do the dishes after, I make sure my sisters are getting picked up from school, call in medecine when my grandma and dad are running low, do the laundry and as soon as I get my liscence im going to have to drive everyone around. I think as soon as I graduate high school I might get more responsibilies... Doing all of this can be very stressful, what I usually do is go anywhere else it doesnt matter if its in a book store or out in the streets and all I want to do is just until I forget everything thats happening at home, forget the responsibilities that I have, forget that Im not a teen who can be carefree...All I want to do is forget!!!

Sunday, March 1, 2009

Books Read in February

This is so sad... I only read four books in February and they were:
1. Evermore
2. Kiss of Fate
3. Warrior Princess
4. Perfect Chemistry

At least they were good books to read and I enjoyed them a lot.

Thursday, February 19, 2009

I HATE my mother, but you shouldnt

So my mom and i are always fighting about something or have yelled at each other at least three times a day. People tell me to apprecitate what I have now cause sooner or later im going to lose it...But its hard to appreciate what I have now, when my mom is yelling at me for everything I do or didnt do... To me my mom is a crazy ass lady, and I say it to her face, she knows she overreacts, but just wont admit it...She pretends to be nice to the other parents to make herself seem like an amazing mother, but she IS NOT! My mother is like a quarter, she has two faces and I get stuck with the side that is a bitch. My mom would rather go to the gym to exercise instead of spending time with my sisters. I dont really care if i dont see her through out the entire day, but my sisters love her way more than I do, so i want her home more for them...
What I noticed with my mom is that shes says shes trying to make us have a better life, but I think that shes using me or my sisters to get the things that she never had in the past. I dont want to have the things that she didnt have. She doesnt want me or my sisters to make the same mistakes as her, but i want and should be able to make my own. I will NOT be her puppet, and neither will my sisters.I think I hate my mother so much because she just does stupid things in her life...I want her to pay more attentions to my sisters than she did to me. I want to be the guinea pig so that she knows what to do to help my sisters out more in life and so that they can be happy. I just dont give a shit to what she thinks about me, I know Im a dissapointment to her and I just dont care anymore. Id rather be happy just being myself and not trying to live up to her expectaions.
I may hate my mother with like 95 percent of my heart, but if you arent me then be happy with what you got...because you can have a big family and millions of friends, but you still only have one person who carried you for nine months, and gave birth to you.

Tuesday, February 17, 2009


If you see a girl that you have never mey before and she says "are u going out with that girl you were sitting by earlier?" what would you say? I told her "no Im not". Then she asks if she could have her number... I had absolutley no idea what to say to her and just said that..."it wouldnt be right if i just gave her number away", and the girl said "oh...okay..." and she sort of follows me back to my seat, but ends up leaving Barnes and Nobles... I go to Barnes and Nobles alot to do homeowrk at something weird always happens to us...This was by far the most hilarious moment of all.... What would you do? What should I have said?

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

100+ Challenge

Books read in January...
1. Bleed
2. Need
3. Bloom
4. Ever night
5. Impossible
6. Ink Exchange
7. Midnight Veil
8. Darkness unknown
9. Deadly Little Secrets
10. What would Emma do?
11. What my mother doesn’t know
12. What my girlfriend doesn’t know
13. One of those hideous stories when the mother dies

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

100+ Reading Challenge!!!

I can't believe I'm going to try and accomplish this challenge...If you cant tell the challenge is to read 100 or more books in the year 2009. Any type of genre is okay for this challenge, but it ends on December 31. I hope I can accomplish this challenge, if i get grounded a lot like I did last year, then for sure I am going to beat this challenge

Sunday, January 25, 2009


I've never really spent a lot of time on a computer before...My friends and cousins would teach me a lot of interesting things that would help make my computer skills better..But until this year I've had to share a computer with 6 other people, and never really could do much on it, even doing homework was hard to do...
This year I got my own laptop!! So hopefully I can make an Amazing blog and a whole bunch of other things!!!

Saturday, January 24, 2009

Random Quotes

"We are human beings with the blood of a million savage years on our hands. But we can stop it, we can admit we're killers, but we wont kill today."
-Capptain James T. Kirk

"Life is not measured by the number of breathes we take, but by the number of moments that take our breath away."

"Yesterday is a mystery, tomorrow is a mystery, today is a gift."
-Elenor Rosovelt

"When scientist finally find the center of the universe, some people will be suprised to learn that its not them."
-Bernard Bailey

Favorite Parts from books....

"Love is the cure all along"
"I was a fallen gaurdian angel, the gargoyle upon a church of sin and despair, a cathode ray of desolation"

Lover Awakened:
"I was dead until you found me though I breathed. I was sightless though I could see. And then you came...and I was awakened."

Lover Unbound:
"Death is weird. Most people think its an on/off kind of thing, but more often its like a process...Kind of like closing up a shop at the end of the day. For the most part things fail in a predicatable manner, until finally the last light in the place goes out and the door is shut and locked. As a doctor I can jump in and stop the progression by sealing up wounds and giving more blood. But sometime the shopkeeper just leave you and you can't stop him no matter what you do..."

Suck it Up:
Every mammal begins life as a vampire. When you were growing and cell-differentiating in your mothers womb, you weren't playing video games. You were feeding on your mothers blood. You didnt feed on her with fangs, you drank her blood with a straw known as an umbilical cord. Then you were born and they cut off the straw."

13 Reasons Why:
"If my Love were an ocean
there would be no more land
If my love were a desert
you would only see sand
If my love were a star
late at night, only light
And if my love could grow wings
Id be soaring in flight"

"I met your eyes
you dont even see me
you hardly respond when
I whisper Hello
could be my soulmate
two kindred spirits
maybe we're not
I guess we'll never
My own mother
you carried me in you
Now you see nothing
but what i wear
people ask you
how i am doing
you smile and nod
dont let it end
put me
underneath gods sky and
know me
dony just see me with your
take away
this mask of flesh and bone and
see me
for my soul

When it happens:
"People who go out with anyone just to be with someone. Its like they would rather be unhappy than be alone."

Manga Books...

A lot of people dont really like Manga books...but i am a big fan of them especially...

Samurai Deeper Kyo
Flame of Recca
FullMetal Alchemist
Saiyuki Reloaded

Places to escape in Romance books...

(All of these books are listed in the order of the series....)
Books by Lara Adrian:
Kiss of Midnight
Kiss of Crimson
Midnight Awakening
Midnight Rising
Veil of Midnight

Books by Gena Showalter:
Darkest Night
Darkest Kiss
Darkest Pleasure

Books by JR Ward:
Dark Lover
Lover Eternal
Lover Awakened
Lover Revealed
Lover Unbound
Lover Enshrined

Books by Anna Windsor:
Bound by Shadow
Bound by Flame
Bound by Light

Books by Alexis Morgan:
Dark Protector
Dark Defender
In Darkness Reborn
Redeemed in Darkness
Darkness Unknown

Books by Deborah Cooke:
Kiss of Fire
Kiss of Fury

(These books are amazing!!!...there are some parts in the book where its very descriptive...XP)

Where to escape in YA books....

The books that I've read to escape are...
(some are series...the order is given...)
Books by Stephenie Meyer:
The Host
New Moon-2
Breaking Dawn-4

Books by Chrisopher Krovatin:
Heavy Metal and You

Books by Alex Sanchez:
Rainbow Boys
Rainbow Road
Rainboe High
(I know they sound weird...they were Really good books...and I'm straight...)

Books by Richelle Mead:
Vampire Academy-1
Shadow Kiss-3

Books by Cinda Williams Chima:
Warriors Heir-1
Wizards Heir-2
Dragons Heir-3

Susane Colasanti:
When it Happens
Take me There

Books by Cassandra Clare
City of Bones-1
City if Ashes-2

Books by Sara Manning:
French Kiss-1
Kiss and Make up-2
Sealed with a Kiss-3
Lets get lost

Books by Sonya Sones
What my Mother doesnt know-1
What my Girlfriend doesnt Know-2
One of those hideous books where the mother dies

Books by Laurie Stolarz:
Blue is for Nightmares-1
White is for Magic-2
Silver is for Secrets-3
Red is for Remembrance-4
Deadly Little Secrets

Books by Deborah Garfinkle
Trading guys-1
Holding On-2
Finding Love-3

Boooks by Melissa Marr:
Wicked Lovely-1
Ink Exchange-2

Books by Elizabeth Scott
Perfect You

Thirteen Reasons Why-Jay Asher

Evernight-Claudia Gray

Need-Carrie Jones

Impossible-Nanvy Werlin

Graceling-Kristin Cashore

Sucks to be me-Kimberley Pauley

Gamer Girl-Mari Mancusi

Lost it-Kristen Tracy

Sticky Fingers- Nikki Burham

What would Emma Do-Eileen Cook

Getting the Girl-Markus Zusak

I heart you, you haunt me- Lisa Schroeder

Suck it up-Brian Meehl

Alittle Friendly Advice-Siobhan Vivian


When it comes to my mother I have a habbit of speaking my mind, and usually it causes me a hell of a lot of trouble...So I would leave my house at a random time to try and get my mouth under control. I leave with whatever's in my bag, jacket and whatever book I'm currently reading...