Thursday, October 25, 2012

I don't mean anything to her, but she still means something to me?

I know I don't love Sasha anymore, but I did love whatever friendship we did have. For a month I had the girl I loved and my best friend living with me. She didn't know anything about how I felt but I felt like the happiest girl in the world. Sure I was confused as fuck how I felt about this girl but I did chose the friendship before she did reject me. It's just hard to remember that since she betrayed me as the person I called my best friend.

We honestly didn't have the best friendship in the world. We didn't trust each other to keep ourselves from falling apart. I didn't tell her anything because she had her own issues to worry about and I wanted her to get over those issues. Sasha did the same for me. Maybe if we had trusted each other more we wouldn't be in the situation we are now?

Not loving someone is the easy part of life, getting over the loss of a relationship is the hardest part.
maybe this would be easier if Sasha would move out of my house...