Amazing

I find it amazing that I tried to do things early for school so that I wouldnt stress the crap out, but then my plans get scewed over. Lets see, the school wouldnt take my debit card so I couldnt buy my textbook so that I can do my homework thats due tomorrow. Work is being a pain in the ass and my boss is being a dumbass and wont hire people when he god damn knows well that we need workers. You know what else is just really fcked up right now? life. As soon as Wednesday is over some of my stress should be gone.

Forget

Forget yesterdays post. I'm in a better mood tonight even though school does start tomorrow.
Gotta love having awesome friends.

nightnight

Words

I cant believe you started to sound like her of all people, I like you for who you are. I get that shes there and im here but really? ilzhjcalijfh For two years Ive known you and I love your sense of humor and the way you say good bye to me. I dont know you anymore. This hurts. it hurts right now

Not my day

yeah.... today was just a why the hell did I get out of bed day. Should have just stayed sleeping with my killer headache, but I wanted to talk to him so i stayed awake. He found out i had a headache and told me to go to sleep again. I did and i ended up waking up at 240 when i start work at three. Got ready and realized my dad had the car so i rode my board to work, but going down a small hill my wheel decided to come loose. Im missing a bolt and a fcking wheel AFTER i just replaced the bearings for it. I called my coworker and told her i would be a few minutes late and asked if she could cover for me. I got my coffee from my friend for free today and as soon as I get into work some douche knocks the coffee out of my hand and i would have started dropping f bombs if my coworker didnt cover my mouth. Then i realized I forgot my uniform at home and   had to borrow someones.
^^^That all happened in 25 minutes after I woke up from a nap....
after my coworker alex went to barnes and nobles to get me another coffee and played some relaxing music while i demolished all of the prep work we had to do for the day hahaha yeah no customers and a butt ton of prep work isnt so bad when you have the right music and the right person to spend the next 6 hours with.

My night got better again when I came home to my sisters singing and dancing to high school musical three and I just couldnt help but sing and dance with them. Then i got to talk to him again tonight and it just made it even better. Now im cuddled on my couch eating pizza wishing i had soda and another movie to watch haha

nightnight everyone or good morning

I saw her

I saw her again :] just a customer who became a regular, who started flirting with me and i didnt really notice until my coworker pointed it out. I didnt see her the whole summer until today and I didnt realize it at first which made me sad, but we got to talking and you know what? I still dont know her goddamn name, and Im pretty sure she knows mine. Yeah I had this goofy grin on my face at work the whole day and yeah adjkldjfs ssoo happy :]

Shoulder

My sister and her boyfriend broke up tonight while I was at work and you know what my mom did? Absolutely nothing. I think she actually made things worse. I hate my mom for doing this to my sister, I hate that she couldnt be my sisters shoulder to cry on, I hate that my sister just didnt call me at work, I hate not being there to be her shoulder to cry on. My grandma was the perfect shoulder to lean on and I miss her like crazy right now. When people need me I can only be someone they can talk to and just hold them when they need me. I give the worst advice, well maybe its not the worst just super generic is all. I hate it when I know my friends need me but I cant be there.

Everyday and Night

I have this grin on my face again. My friend is helping me learn some new skate moves which arent going so well,  so I'm taking a break now. While im watching him and my other guy friends skate Im talking to my other friend online and honestly both of these guys are making me pretty happy right now. Which is heavenly considering the argument i had with a diff friend the other night. Right now life is finding a way for things to work out more for me and im loving it. 

well back to skating. 

nightnight

A day late

So let me get this straight
You say now you loved me all along
What made you hesitate
To tell me with words what you really feel
I can see it in your eyes you mean all of what you say
I remember so long ago, see I felt that same way
Now we both have separate lives and lovers (and lovers)
Insignificantly enough we both have significant others

Only time will tell
Time will turn and tell

We are who we were when
Could've been lovers but at least you're still my day late friend
We are who
We are who we were when
Who knew what we know now
Could've been more but at least you're still my day late friend
We are who
We are who we were when

But thoughts they change and times they rearrange I don't know who you are anymore
Loves come and go and this I know I'm not who you recall anymore
But I must confess you're so much more then I remember
Can't help but entertain these thoughts
Thoughts of us together

We are who we were when
Could've been lovers but at least you're still my day late friend
We are who
We are who we were when
Who knew what we know now
Could've been more but at least you're still my day late friend
We are who
We are who we were when

My day late friend

So let me get this straight
All these years and you were nowhere to be found
And now you want me for your own
But you're a day late and my love, she's still renowned

We are who we were when
Could've been lovers but at least you're still my day late friend
We are who
We are who we were when
Who knew what we know now
Could've been more but at least you're still my day late friend
We are who
We are who we were when
x2






This song has been on repeat for most of my day and I cant help but think in my head of what could have been with a couple of people in my life, but whatever happens happens. 

Today

This summer is turning out to be a pretty awesome summer :] Going out everyday to spend time with friends, going on random adventures in walmart, playing airsoft again, driving around, avoiding getting tickets, coming home at 3 am then leaving for work at six haha this summer is just pretty epic and I have two weeks left of it. Today though was a family day. Had to go to the dentist, my sisters saw me at work, went to a fundraiser, danced like idiots at the fundraiser, buy smoothies, get lost on the other side of the island and take my sister megan to her bowling practice for school and ending up eating chinese before we came. The three Shinagawa girls having a girls day out. I need more days like this and I hope my friends can understand this :/ 

Some of my friends feel hurt whenever I chose my sisters over my family, or anyone in my family over them. I love my friends and some of them dont have what I have at home. Lets take my one guy friend for example; his older sister is the typical golden child and he is always hiding in her shadow. He is the smartest guy I know and his sister still outshines him no matter what. His parents dont give a shit about him and give him a hard time. So all he has is us, and we love him but he needs to understand that Im a big sister and I cant keep him company all the time. Guess what? he never does, he gets super p.m.s.y whenever some of us have to cancel plans on him and it sucks :/

but yeah today was honestly a day well spent :} tomorrow is going to suck though because i have a lot of shit i have to do at work since i took today off :/ oh wells. hope everyone is having a great night and or morning. 

nightnight

You

you: are you ignoring me?

me: yes. I'm ignoring you because once I admitted my true feelings to you, you gave up on me, and our friendship.

you: well I thought it would be awkward if I kept talking to you like everything was normal.

me: no, it wouldnt have been awkward. I was in love with our friendship and not so much you. I would have been completely fine with just us talking like that conversation never happened. Im the one who got hurt not you.

you:... sorry. I'll change

me: dont change, you wont change and even if you did it wouldnt be the friend I thought you were.