guess what?

IT'S SUMMER TIME!!! 


that is all i have to say xD

Tonight

"Im in a relationship and its complicated". fcking hate saying those words it shouldnt be complicated, if you love someone you love them, but you know what? it is complicated. Its like every person i like isnt on this island (Lol i bitch and moan about this a lot) I dont want another long distance relationship, I dont want to fall for someone who doesnt live here, I dont want to fall for someone and not have the relationship go anywhere. So we do nothing. feelings fade and we move on to someone new. what sucks is knowing that person moved onto someone new, whose in the same state as them and who can actually hold them in their arms and kiss them goodbye. It sucks that theyve moved on, but honestly Im really happy for them. Im just happy they have someone and can maybe fall in love with.
Im going to miss the text messages at random hours, saying good night to them when its morning, having someone make me smile for no apparent reason. Im going to miss the fact or the feeling of maybe I could fall in love with this person and truly be happy.

music

I found my grandmas Ipod... and I swear im crying at ever song thats playing. there are just soo many memories with these songs. I shared her ipod with her when we went to florida, played her CDs in the car, and listened to them when she was at the hospital. I dont think I can put her ipod with mine, I would cry at any random moment like I am now. yeah... im being semi stupid right now. I realy should go home and do my homework or at least go cry in my own bed instead of being here. I miss her so much right now. Im getting more done to my tattoo soon. Im for sure putting her full name and her birthday.




なんくるないさ

bday

the past two days have been fun and amazing :] but whats sad is that I can officially say I'm short a best friend.

nerf gun battles, yakiniku, chill day at work, new ipod, new phone, paycheck from work, and I got a letter from Jake. yeah the past two days have been perfect and Im ready to go back to school...as soon as I do my homework...

the moon

i can see the moon perfectly right now, and its beautiful. It makes my night everytime I see the moon. When it was a full moon this month it was just perfect, skating with friends and just talking under the biggest full moon in 20 years was just something else for me. Its spring break right now and Im having a lot of fun =] one of my best friends is home for a week, my other friend is getting healthier everyday, I get to take my sisters out to breakfast before school starts for them, I get to skate more :D and I can sleep in lol. yeah, this spring break has been awesome so far and have no regrets about it. just have to at least start on my homework though...then all is well =]

at the park

This is going to sound pretty creepy but I love watching kids play in the park. Theyre so care free and they have their parents watching over them so they dont have to worry. I remember coming to this park with my grandma and my sisters. She would watch over us as we played on the swings or ran around like there was no tomorrow. I miss that the most, having someone watch over you so you have nothing to worry about. Marco Polo wasnt just a game for my family, it was a calling to make sure we were all okay. My grandma would yell marco, and we would have to yell polo from youngest to oldest. I miss how simple things were when my grandma was alive, I miss her. Nankurunaisa. Whatever happens, happens. Im going to be a grandma one day and make sure my grandkids feel the same way I did, thats my long term goal at least. Short term goal is to take my sisters to this park and play in the swings, I'll remember what its like to do nothing but have fun, I'll remember that my grandma gave me this feeling of pure joy.

whatever happens, happens=nankurunaisa.

Spring Break

Spring Break is here!!! one week of having fun with friends :]

Last night was awesome, well actually all of yesterday was just pure awesome. My sister came home from her florida trip and bought me mickey mouse hands. which are pretty hard to put on. Got food, food and more food. Apparently my friends couldnt find me in barnes and nobles sssoo they decided to yell at the top of their lungs "Shannon!!! meeet us outside" I was going to murder them. but it made my night even better :]
Watched Battle LA last night and it was awesome :] then to finish the night off. we went and got all you can eat yakiniku at 2 am xD got home around 430 am and now Im getting ready for work at 1030. running on 5 hours of sleep :] its the way of spring break xD

hope everyone is having a good day and getting enough sleep

TSUNAMI

tsunami warning tonight!! an 8.9 earthquake hit japan.