Tuesday, January 25, 2011

January 27th

Is the day my grandma passed away. thats two days from today. I have family coming over to celebrate her one year anniversary of being gone...but why would anyone want to celebrate the passing of someone... I just want to go to school, get my tattoo and just dissapear for the day. I dont want to see my family and talk about how much we miss my grandma. I told them that, and they got really mad at me. I understand that we should be together on the 27th, but I dont want to be around them. I love my family and I know they love me, so why cant they understand that I just want to be alone for a couple of hours? They dont know im getting my tattoo on thursday, not sure how long I can even hide it from them anyways but who cares. The tattoos gonna remind me that life goes on after my grandma, and that I have to live my life to make her proud of me.

What sucks even more is that I have to write a paper about a person I cared a lot about and how they changed my life, the essays due on thursday too. Life is just telling me to remember my grandma, and remembering this much about her just sucks and makes me want to cry even more. Im trying to do the stupid essay right now at barnes and nobles, but needed a break. So im on here typing out whats going through my head right now. Just a small distraction of the things to come up in the next couple of days.

Monday, January 17, 2011


wifi is very important and I dont have it at home. So im sitting in barnes and nobles trying to do as much homework as I can before my battery dies. which is in about... 3 hours :D gotta love extended battery life =]

Monday, January 10, 2011

blah =P

up and dressed for school. I start at 8 am today....last semester I started at 1. ooh boy. this sucks lol. helping my sisters get ready, and eating breakfast. I actually miss doing this with them =]

hope you have a great day =] cause i hope I do too

Wednesday, January 5, 2011


Perfect day in Hawaii

Saturday, January 1, 2011

Happy New Year

Last night and this morning was perfect. The last year of fireworks in Hawaii and EVERYONE went crazy. you could not go one minute withour hearing fireworks, or seeing something light up in the sky. Ended up buring two of my fingers though, part of my jeans and my shoes. But honestly everyone next year is gonna get their hands on some illegal fireworks so I cant wait to see how much people I know will get tickets for them. Every January first I would go up to this one point to see the sunrise. Its just my spot to go to whenever Im sad and just want to get away. The only other person who Ive ever taken up their with me is my best guy friend and I didnt get to hang out with him this year, but that boy knows me pretty well and called me to keep me company. The sunrise was beauiful as always and I had a great first conversation of the year.

Hope you have a great first day =]